So it's 4:15am and I'm sick as a dog. Should be sleeping but my heart is keeping me awake. I'm looking over pictures of this year and i'm remembering the timeline of each photo. This year has been a nightmare from day one, literally.
I wish I could wake up, this is all dream. Someone tell me this is a joke. I don't have MS, the love of my life didn't leave me so cruelly. Someone please, pinch me so I can awake to the true reality. I don't want this life.
I want to be happy! I just want to be happy........
Is that so hard to ask for....
I don't think certain people realize the turmoil that is playing in my head. The what if's, the what could have been.
Why is it that something that was so amazing be ripped away from you in an instant. Leave you there in shock, not knowing where to look next. Cause thats exactly how I'm feeling, i've been feeling.this. I'm trying to keep my feet planted but life has other plans. I almost feel like I need to be saved, how pathetic is that?
I need some type of luck to start heading my way, or maybe I need to stop letting people push me over. God I.don't like this overwheling feeling of dark. I miss my light.
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