Torture of the heart

When ever I see this face it will always make my heart stop, I don't know what my feelingture but for now these words ring true for me. There may be people in my life that may not like to hear that even after how things went down I still feel as if I want to say I love you. He stopped by my work a week or two ago and when things were said n' done we hugged I felt this flame ignite as if almost our hearts didn't want to let go. I was not the only one who noticed my customers noticed too. Maybe also it was all in my head because I want so much for things to come back together like sugar and water. They soak together beautifully and make caramel. Something the entire world loves. Though he has own rights to how he feels and all I can do is have hope, see if things work out how I would love them too or just accept the fact that all well ever be is friends which in all truth is not what I want exactly but I'll play his game for now. If it's something I can't handle I'll figure out something I can do. No matter how much right now that I want to walk away, my heart tells me not too. Something is telling me to stay to try and see where this road leads. I want this face to love me as much as I do him and not be compelled to throw me away but of course I am not fate nor am I god. I can't pull the heart strings no matter how much I wish I could. This man has stolen, yes stolen a piece of my heart I never thought no man could do

 even with a past relationship that I had with a certain person I almost feel this triumphs the connection I have with this person. I feel as if maybe things are fooling with me. I've been constantly keeping myself busy to try not to think of the situation so the tears would stop. Nobody doesn't really understand how I feel besides a few people. Some people ask so are you over him? he's no good for you but right now I don't see it. I think I refuse too. Someone anyone give me a sign? tell me where am I going? I felt like I had my life planned out but now all I want to do is scream