When you see my life people have a tendency of saying it's typical, you shouldn't be worrying so much about things. Laugh some more, stop taking things so serious. Now I have no idea why I'm this way, I have always been the one to say stop when things start getting hairy and acting like the grown up. I actually hate feeling like i'm 5 years older then I am but my emotions fool me every time. I would love to have a balance but its either extreme or to little. I'm for sure programed different, not necessarily a bad thing but it for sure gets in the way I would love to live my life. I look at my brother and he works his ass off to maintain everything he has and I'm so proud of him, he is becoming the man he wants to be. As for me, I feel behind, like I'm slacking. I want everything now but that is not how things work. What I want is not necessarily the things I need.
Last April when I thought I was pregnant, I wasn't sure if my life would forever be changed or if I was even pregnant but the great thing is that I wasn't but I wanted it to be true but it wasn't what I needed. Kinda get what I said.
I know some of the things I said don't make sense but I for my mind and way of thinking does for me.
I better get some sleep
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